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Sep. 11th, 2011

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I can't believe a year has passed since the last time I wrote on here! Twitter and facebook have become my social mediums of choice, so half the time I forget that I still have a livejournal.

Major events since my last post

1. Graduated law school
2. Took the bar (still waiting for results)
3. Moved to a new place - but still in Chicago
4. Directed a production of the Vagina Monologues at my school

That's really about it. I've mostly been enjoying unemployment since I graduated and finished with the bar. Coping with it being September, which has always been a difficult month for me. I have a decent lead on a job, but I'm really trying not to get my hopes up about it more than they already have.

Let me know who all is still on this site!

Jul. 20th, 2010

Buckbeak - whimsical

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I am now more than halfway through the summer. Already I'm starting to worry about next semester - how I'm going to hate my classes, that I need to start looking for a real job, that I need to figure out what I am doing as far as working. I don't want to be worrying about this stuff yet - but it is time for it. At this time last year I was in my second to last week on my job and only two weeks away from moving back to Chicago. So, I really don't have a lot of time. Barely a month and it's back to the grindstone.

I am also trying not to think about the fact that this is my last year of law school. When I started I thought it would never end, but now? It feels like it's flown by. I'm really not ready to join the real world. Especially, if I can't find a job.

In other news.... I haven't managed any of my goals for the summer. I was going to get out more - meet people not connected with law school - and I haven't done any of that.

Oh well. There is always next semester. Also, the summer isn't over quite yet.

May. 31st, 2010

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I find myself suddenly looking forward to starting my internship. If nothing else it will get me out of my apartment and force me to be around other human beings for awhile. I don't like being by myself. It's not good for me.

Speaking of. My Mom is having a bit of a hard time right now. I wish I could be there for her, but I have to be content with just calling her all the time to talk to her and see how she is. It doesn't help that Michael is being a complete jackass. He's not letting her in the house to get her stuff. It's hard for her. I'm sure somewhere in the back of her mind it's also hard for her to not be in the usual situation that she is in when she leaves him. He usually begs her to come back. But this time he filed for divorce. That's gotta hurt. As much as I don't want her to go back to him I don't want her to be going through this.

I also know that she eventually has to learn how to deal with being alone. But I can't help worrying - since I remember what happened the last time she was alone. I want her to find someone nice. Someone who deserves her. She really is a special lady, a tad socially inept perhaps, but you'll never meet someone more loving. She deserves someone special. She didn't deserve and abusive jerk and she doesn't deserve to be dealing with this.

May. 26th, 2010

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Last Friday my mom called me. She told me that her husband got really angry and hit her. More than a few times. She's okay. She left the house - called the cops - and is now living in a hotel.

Apparently, he is filing for divorce.

I really wish I had been wrong about him - but he's been showing classic textbook signs of being an abuser for awhile now. He just hadn't actually done it. Then finally, almost three years into their marriage he does it. A part of me is happy - I've never liked the guy he put my hackles up the moment I met him - but a larger part of me is sad for her and worried. Also, hoping that she sticks with it this time. She has a horrible habit of going back to him.

But the important thing is, she seems to be doing well. She sounds happy on the phone and is generally remaining positive. I just wish I were actually there to be there for her.

May. 25th, 2010

Buckbeak - whimsical

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I just signed up for a couple of Yahoo meetup groups. I've had good luck with these groups before, so I thought I'd give the ones in Chicago a shot. I was pleasantly surprised with the variety. I suppose Chicago is big enough that there are several groups that are somewhat specialized. I joined a new LGBT group - one aimed at nerdy gay people, a new Pagan group, an an LGBT Pagan group. So think that is the full spectrum.

I surprised myself by how badly I wanted to join the pagan group. I haven't done that much with that part of who I am - I'm excited to start meeting other people interested in it and actually working with groups again. I was never mean to be a solitary - let's face it.

So, hopefully I'll be getting out a bit more this summer. Socializing and whatnot.

Apr. 29th, 2010

Buckbeak - whimsical

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Semester is almost over. Thank goodness. It has been the semester from hell, although I've learned a lot. I've probably moved closer to actually being able to defend real clients in the last four months than I moved in my first year and a half of law school.

Just have to get through finals - which I'm starting to panic about. I'm not anywhere near where I usually am - but I can't get myself to start working on anything. Hopefully tomorrow will go better. I started reviewing one of my classes - which has a take home - but I'm not certain how that class is actually going to end up going down - and in the meantime I'm wary of wasting too much time.

But, I should be able to start really buckling down once my favorite study buddy finishes his take home exam. We'll have to pull some long hours - but I have every confidence that we'll pull through with good grades, because we always do. In the meantime, I really should just review - and try to relax - because the next week will be intense enough without me stressing about not stressing now.

Also, I will be going home after finals are over. To both homes, actually. See my dad in KY and my mom. I can't wait.

Apr. 23rd, 2010

Angry Puppy

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I really hope me and my crim lit team do not all kill each other before Sunday.

Apr. 13th, 2010

Willow and Tara loving

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Oddly enough, today has been a day of introspection. Also, the discovery that I don't spend as much time in introspection.
It sort of started yesterday. I talked to my Professor about my argument last Wednesday, and we discussed my oral argument nerves. Now, you have to understand, my oral argument nerves are a strange occurrence, I almost never get butterflies doing anything else. I've always attributed it to my authority figure issues. Go Sergent Tucker - I always get intimidated by them and am nervous when forced to interact with them in an unfamiliar way. That is still a perfectly logical explanation - and could be the truth. But when I mentioned that to my Professor (who I've known since September) he looked at me strangely and told me that that is not what my personality would suggest at all.
But wait. My personality is timid. My personality is awkward. My personality is to be nervous.
But maybe it's not. Maybe I am still thinking of myself and my motivations as being the same as they were before I came to law school - or maybe even before I graduated high school. Maybe I am different now. With different faults and flaws and problems - by no means better - simply different. Maybe I can't be flippant when trying to figure out why I do the things I do and assume that my reasons for reacting a particular way in a situation hasn't changed in the last 10 years.
Further evidence of that would be my decision whether or not to try out for trial team. I was set to do it. I don't think I'll make it for a variety of reasons, but I was set to at least try. But then I found out that the same day as the tryouts is something else I want to do. Now I can't decide. When my friend mentioned that I've been uncharacteristically hesitant about trying out for this, I rather flippantly told him that I don't like competition. But I don't know if that is true anymore. It might be. It might be that I am afraid that not making it will bruise my ego. It might be that I just don't want to put in the time. It is probably a lot of these factors. The point is, I don't seem to know myself well enough anymore to give these sort of easy answers.
Finally, today my Trial Ad Professor asked me and another girl how we can be so pro-defense and want to defend guilty people. Now, he is a former State's Attorney - who knows a lot of defense lawyers - so I don't think he was asking it int he usual way. But my friend answered flippantly. I know she was flippant for the same reasons that I've become flippant about that question. I sick of being asked that. But he wanted to make sure that we'd really thought about it. For some reason, the way that he asked the question really made me go back and reevaluate everything. I came to the same conclusion - but still. No one has made me reevaluate like that in a long time. I think it is because I have so much respect for this man. I came to the same conclusions - but reached it slightly differently.
Anyway. Apparently, it is a good day to be introspective and to reevaluate the things that we've become flippant about. Or at least it is for me.

Apr. 7th, 2010

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So, today was a good day. The sort of day that makes me look forward to becoming a lawyer. Right now, I can look forward to the day when I am actually competent at all of this stuff and say "I will have so much fun."

I gave an argument in my Crim Lit class, and truthfully, I don't think I did that great of a job. But it was still so much fun. Apparently I didn't breath the whole time I was speaking - but it was still fun. Tomorrow - telling fortunes for charity - then Saturday is law school prom.

It's exciting.

Apr. 4th, 2010

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What is going on with my friends page? Can't see any posts older than yesterday. Weird.

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